I read this
book because it was said to contain several rape scenes, but it barely has one;
an even in this the actual intercourse lasts for exactly seven sentences. It’s
ridiculous how people overreact to rape scenes in their reviews.
Clan of the Cave Bear (1980) by Jean M.
Untinen-Auel, chapter 18
Broud
gave her a signal, and Ayla's eyes flew open. It was unexpected. Iza told her
men only wanted that from women they considered attractive; she knew Broud
thought she was ugly. Broud hadn't missed Ayla's shocked surprise, her reaction
encouraged him. He signaled her again, imperiously, to assume the position so
he could relieve his needs, the position for sexual intercourse.
Ayla
knew what was expected. Not only had Iza explained, she had often seen adult
members of the clan engage in the activity -- all the children had; there were
no artificial restraints in the clan. Children learned adult behavior by
emulating their parents, and sexual behavior was just one of many activities
they mimicked. It always puzzled Ayla, she wondered why it was done, but it
didn't disturb her to see a young boy bounce harmlessly on a young girl in
conscious imitation of adults.
Sometimes it wasn't imitation. Many young
girls of the Clan were pierced by pubescent boys who lingered in the limbo of
not-yet-men, before their first kill; and occasionally a man, beguiled by a young
coquette, pleased himself with a not-quite-ripe female. Most young men, though,
felt it beneath their dignity to play games with former playmates.
But
Ayla had no male playmates near her age except Vorn, and since the earlier days
when Aga actively discouraged their association, there had never developed any
close contact between them. Ayla was not particularly fond of Vorn, who
imitated Broud's actions toward her. Despite the incident on the practice
field, the boy still idolized Broud, and Vorn was not about to play
"mates" with Ayla. There was no one else who might have, so she had
never even engaged in the imitation of the act. Within a society that indulged
in sex as naturally as they breathed, Ayla was still a virgin.
The
young woman felt awkward; she knew she must comply, but she was flustered and
Broud was enjoying it. He was glad he had thought of it; he had finally broken
down her defenses. It excited him to see her so confused and bewildered, and
aroused him. He hovered close as she got up, then started to lower herself to
her knees. Ayla wasn't accustomed to men of the clan being so near. Broud's
heavy breathing frightened her. She hesitated.
Broud got impatient, pushed her down, and
moved aside his wrap exposing his organ, thick and throbbing. What is she
waiting for? She's so ugly, she should be honored, no other man would have her,
he thought angrily, grabbing at her wrap to move it out of the way as his need
grew.
But
as Broud closed in on her, something snapped. She couldn't do it! She just
couldn't. Her reason left her. It didn't matter that she was supposed to obey
him. She scrambled to her feet and started to run. Broud was too quick for her.
He grabbed her, pushed her down, and punched her in the face, cutting her lip with
his hard fist. He was beginning to enjoy this. Too many times had he restrained
himself when he wanted to beat her, but there was no one to stop him here. And
he had justifiable reason -- she was disobeying him, actively disobeying him.
Ayla
was frantic. She tried to get up and he hit her again. He was getting a
reaction from her he never expected, and it stirred him to greater lust. He
would cow this insolent woman yet. He hit her again and again, and felt a great
satisfaction to see her cringe as he made a move to hit her once more.
Her
head was ringing, blood trickled out of her nose and the corner of her mouth.
She tried to get up, but he held her down. She struggled against him, pummeling
his chest with her fists. They had no effect on his hard muscular body, but her
resistance aroused him to new heights. Never had he felt so stimulated --
violence increased his passion and lust added force to his blows. He reveled in
her resistance and clouted her again.
She
was nearly unconscious when he threw her over on her face, feverishly ripped
her wrap aside, and spread her legs. With one hard thrust, he penetrated
deeply. She screamed with pain. It added to his pleasure. He lunged again,
drawing forth another painful cry, then again, and again. The intensity of his
excitement urged him on, rising quickly to unbearable peaks. With a last hard
drive that extracted a final agonized scream, he ejected his built-up heat.
Broud collapsed on top of her for a moment,
his energy spent. Then, still breathing heavily, he withdrew himself. Ayla
sobbed incoherently. The salt from her tears stung the open wounds on her
blood-smeared face. One eye was swollen nearly shut and turning dark. Her
thighs were stained with blood and she hurt deep inside. Broud got up and
looked down at her. He felt good; he had never enjoyed penetrating a woman so
much. He picked up his weapons and headed back to the cave.
Ayla lay with her face in the dirt long
after her sobbing stopped. Finally she pulled herself up. She touched her
mouth, felt the swelling, and looked at the blood on her fingers. Her whole
body ached, inside and out. She saw blood between her thighs and the stains on
the grass. Is my totem fighting again? she wondered. No, I don't think so, it's
not time. Broud must have wounded me. I didn't know he could beat me on the
inside, too. But the other women don't hurt from it, why should Broud's organ
wound me? Is there something wrong with me?
Slowly she got up and walked to the creek,
hurting with every step. She washed herself, but it didn't help the throbbing,
aching pain, or the turmoil in her mind. Why did Broud want me to do that? Iza
says men want to relieve their needs with attractive women. I'm ugly. Why
should a man want to hurt a woman he likes? But women like it, too; why else
would they make the gestures to encourage men? How can they like it? Oga never
minds it when Broud does it to her, and he does it every day, more than once,
sometimes.
Suddenly Ayla was horrified. Oh, no! What if
Broud makes me do it again? I won't go back. I can't go back. Where can I go?
My little cave? No, it's too close, and I can't stay there in winter. I have to
go back, I can't live alone, where else can I go? And I can't leave Iza, and
Creb, and Uba. What am I going to do? If Broud wants it, I can't refuse him.
None of the other women would even try. What's wrong with me? He never wanted
that when I was still a girl. Why did I have to become a woman? I was so happy
about it, now I wouldn't care if I was a girl all my life. I'll never have a
baby anyway. What good is being a woman if you can't have a baby? Especially if
a man can make you do something like that? What good is it anyway? What's it
for?
The
sun was low when she plodded back up the knoll to look for her ptarmigan. The
eggs, cushioned so carefully, were crushed, and stained the front of her wrap.
She looked back at the creek and remembered how happy she was watching the
birds. It seemed ages ago, another time, another place. She dragged herself
back to the cave, dreading every step.
As
Iza watched the sun disappear behind the trees in the west, she grew more
anxious. She walked partway up all the paths in the nearby woods and to the
ridge to scan the slope toward the steppes. A woman shouldn't be out alone; I
never do like it when Ayla hunts, Iza thought. What if she was attacked by some
animal? Maybe she's hurt? Creb was concerned, too, though he tried not to show
it. Even Brun began to worry as it grew dark. Iza was the first to see her
walking toward the cave from the ridge. She started to scold her for making her
worry, but stopped before her first gesture.
"Ayla! You're hurt! What happened?"
"Broud beat me," she motioned, her
expression dull.
"But why?"
"I disobeyed him," the young woman
gestured as she walked into the cave and straight to the hearth.
What
could have happened? Iza wondered. Ayla hasn't disobeyed Broud for years. Why
would she rebel against him now? And why didn't he tell me he saw her? He knew
I was worried. He's been back since noon, why is Ayla so late? Iza cast a quick
glance in the direction of Broud's hearth and saw him staring across the
boundary stones at Ayla, against all good manners, with a pleased smirk on his
face.
Creb
had taken in the whole scene: Ayla's bruised and swollen face and look of utter
desolation, Broud watching her from the moment she returned with an arrogant
sneer. He knew Broud's hatred had grown over the years -- her placid obedience
seemed to affect him worse than her girlish rebellion -- but something had
happened that gave Broud a sense of power over her. As perceptive as Creb was,
he could not have guessed the cause.
Ayla
was afraid to leave the hearth the next day, dawdling over her morning meal as
long as she could. Broud was waiting for her. Thinking about his intense
excitement of the day before had him stimulated and ready. When he gave her the
signal, she almost bolted, but forced herself to assume the position. She tried
to repress her cries, but the pain forced them from her lips, causing curious
glances from those who happened to be nearby. They could no more understand why
she was crying out in pain than they could understand Broud's sudden interest
in her.
Broud
reveled in his newfound dominance over Ayla and used her often, though many
people wondered why he chose the ugly woman he hated over his own comely mate.
After a, time, it was no longer painful, but Ayla detested it. And it was her
hatred that Broud enjoyed. He had put her in her place, gained superiority over
her, and finally found a way to make her react to him. It didn't matter that
her response was negative, he preferred it. He wanted to see her cower, to see
her fear, to see her force herself to submit. Just thinking about it stimulated
him. He had always had a strong drive; now he was more sexually active than
ever. Every morning that he wasn't away hunting, he waited for her, usually
forced her again in the evening and sometimes at midday as well. He even found
himself aroused at night and used his mate to relieve himself. He was young and
healthy, at the peak of his sexual prowess, and the more intensely she hated
him, the more pleasure he derived.
--
Early one
evening when Creb was away from the hearth, she beckoned to Ayla.
"I want to talk to you."
"Yes, Iza," Ayla replied, hauling
herself up from her fur and slumping down in the dirt near the woman.
"When was the last time your totem
battled, Ayla?"
"I don't know."
"Ayla, I want you to think about it.
Have the spirits fought within you since the blossoms dropped?"
The young woman tried to think. "I'm
not sure, maybe once."
"That's what I thought," Iza
said. "You're getting sick in the mornings, aren't you?"
"Yes," she nodded. Ayla thought
her sickness was because every morning that Broud wasn't gone hunting, he was
there, waiting for her, and she hated it so much, she was losing her breakfast,
and sometimes her evening meal, too.
"Have your breasts felt sore?"
"A little."
"And they've grown larger, too, haven't
they?"
"I think so. Why are you asking? Why all
these questions?"
The
woman looked at her seriously. "Ayla, I don't know how it happened, I can
hardly believe it, but I'm sure it's true."
"What's true?"
"Your totem has been defeated; you are
going to have a baby."
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