Later in the book she gives birth to her rapist's son.
World Without End (2007) by Ken Follett, chapter 28.
World Without End (2007) by Ken Follett, chapter 28.
Ralph
belched fruitily and sighed. ”What do you care whether Wulfric inherits?”
“I love
him, my lord. Now that he has been rejected by Annet, I hope he may marry me –
with your gracious permission, of course.”
“Come closer,” he said.
She
moved into the center of the room and stood in front of him. His eyes roamed
all over her body.
“You’re not a pretty girl,” he said. “But
there’s something about you. Are you a virgin?”
“Lord – I – I —“
“Obviously not,” he laughed. “Have you lain with Wulfric yet?”
“No!”
“Liar.” He grinned, enjoying himself. “Well, now, what if I let Wulfric
have his father’s lands after all? Perhaps I should. What then?”
“You would be called a true nobleman by Wigleigh and all the world.”
“The world won’t care. But will you be grateful to me?”
Gwenda had a horrible feeling that
she knew where this was leading.
“Of course, deeply grateful.”
“And how would you show it?”
She backed towards the door. “Any
way I could without shame.”
“Would you take off your dress?”
Her heart sank. “No, lord”
“Ah. Not so grateful, then.”
She reached the door and touched the
handle, but she did not go out. “What… what are you asking me, lord?”
“I want to see you naked. Then I’ll decide.”
“Here?”
“Yes”
She looked at Alan. “In front of
him?”
“Yes.”
It did not seem much, to show
herself to these two men – not by comparison with the prize, winning Wulfric’s
inheritance back.
Swiftly, she undid her belt and
pulled her dress over her head. She held the dress in her hand, keeping the
other hand on the doorknob, and stared defiantly at Ralph. He looked greedily
at her body, then glanced over at his companion with a grin of triumph; and
Gwenda saw that this was about showing his power as much as anything else.
Ralph said: “An ugly cow, but nice
udders – eh, Alan?”
Alan replied: “I wouldn’t climb over
you to get at her.”
Ralph laughed.
Gwenda said: “Now will you grant my
petition?”
Ralph put his hand to his crotch and
began to stroke himself. “Lie with me,” he said. “On that bed.”
“No.”
“Come on – you’ve already done it with Wulfric, you’re no virgin.”
“No.”
“Think of the lands – ninety acres, all that his father had.”
She thought. If she agreed, Wulfric
would have his heart’s desire – and the two of them could look forward to a
life of plenty. If she continued to refuse, Wulfric would be a landless
labourer, like Joby, struggling all his life to make enough to feed his
children, and often failing.
Still the thought revolted her.
Ralph was an unpleasant man, petty and vengeful, a bully – so different from
his brother. His being tall and handsome made little difference. It would be
disgusting to lie with someone she disliked so much.
The fact that she had done it with
Wulfric only yesterday made the prospect of sex with Ralph even more repellent.
After her night of happy intimacy with Wulfric, it would be a terrible betrayal
to do the same with another man.
Don’t be a fool, she told herself.
For the sake of five minutes of unpleasantness, will you condemn yourself to a
life of hardship? -- Was it not better to prostitute herself to Ralph one time,
for just a few moments, than to condemn her unborn children to a life of
poverty?
Ralph remained quiet while she
vacillated. He was wise: any words from him would only have strengthened her
revulsion. Silence served him better.
“Please,” Gwenda said at last. “Don’t make me do this.”
“Ah,” he said. “That tells me you’re willing.”
“It’s a sin,” she said desperately. She did not often talk about sin,
but she thought there was a chance it might move him. “A sin for you to ask,
and a sin for me to agree.”
“Sins can be forgiven.”
“What would your brother think of you?”
That gave him pause. For a moment he
seemed to hesitate.
“Please,” she said. “Just let Wulfric inherit.”
His face hardened again. “I’ve made
my decision. I’m not going to reverse it
– unless you can persuade me. And just saying please won’t work.” His eyes
glistened with desire, and he was breathing a little faster, his mouth open,
his lips moist behind his beard.
She dropped her dress to the floor
and walked to the bed.
“Kneel on the mattress,” Ralph said. “No, facing away from me.”
She did as he said.
“Better view from this side,” he said, and Alan laughed loudly. Gwenda
wondered if Alan was going to stay to watch, but then Ralph said: “Leave us
alone.” A moment later the door slammed.
Ralph knelt on the bed behind
Gwenda. She closed her eyes and prayed for forgiveness. She felt his thick
fingers exploring her. She heard him spit, then he rubbed a wet hand on her. A
moment later he entered her. She groaned with shame.
Ralph misinterpreted the sound and
said: “You like that, eh?”
She wondered how long this would
take. He began to move rhythmically. To ease the discomfort she moved with him,
and he laughed triumphantly, thinking he had excited her lust. Her greatest
fear was that this would sour her entire experience of lovemaking. In future,
when she lay with Wulfric, would she think of this moment?
And then, to her horror, a warm
flush of pleasure began to spread through her loins. She felt her face redden
in shame. Despite her profound repugnance, her body betrayed her, and moisture
flooded inside her, easing the friction of his thrusts. He sensed the change
and moved faster. Disgusted with herself, she ceased to match his rhythm; but
he grabbed her hips, pushing and pulling alternately, and she was helpless to
resist. She remembered with dismay that her body had undermined her in the same
way with Alwyn in the forest. Then as now, she had wanted her body to be a
wooden statue, numb and impassive; both times, it had responded against her
will.
She had killed Alwyn with his own
knife.
She could not do the same to Ralph,
even if she had wanted to, because he was behind her. She could not see him,
and she had little control over her body. She was in his hands. She was glad
when she sensed that he was approaching the climax. Soon it would be over. She
felt an answering pressure in her own loins. She tried to make her body limp
and her mind blank: it would be too humiliating if she, too, reached a climax.
She felt Ralph ejaculate inside her, and she shuddered, not with pleasure but
with loathing.
He sighed with satisfaction,
withdrew from her and lay flat on the bed.
She got up and quickly pulled on her
dress.
“That was better than I expected,” Ralph said, as if he were paying her
some kind of polite compliment.
She went out and slammed the door behind her.
She went out and slammed the door behind her.
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